Saturday, June 20, 2009

The Mirage

When we let go of God and choose to do what we know best, we fail.. What seemed to be the worst only seems far easier than what we find ourselves in now. Perhaps we walk into our own will and not God’s.. Perhaps we run into our own trap... a mirage that we once perceived as the dreams we bargained for. So God cries out not to be deceived.. but its hard to trust the unseen. Hard to comprehend that the best is yet to come. We don’t realize that this isn’t what we are ourselves want.. that it is an illusion.. a lie.. but we refuse to listen. We blind our eyes to what is seen and ignore the quiet voice in our hearts that’s telling us that this is an obstacle from gaining what we really want and that which God wants to give. We push ourselves away from what we ourselves asked and we make God our enemy when all he is doing is protecting us and trying to make our dreams a reality.. our dreams..not His..

We see a little goodness in life and we grab onto it refusing to let God take us to the best. So we fall, we fail and find ourselves in a worse place than our once thought of misery. The past becomes nothing compared to the pain of now. Yet, God walks into the mess we’ve made of our lives and makes something good come out of the pain we have brought upon ourselves. We choose death but he brings us out alive. We choose pain yet he brings us out stronger. Who does that? Who kindly draws victory out of our self inflicted defeat? Who does that so lovingly? We asked for hope and joy.. He wants to give .. Yet we end up in traps of distrust and think God wants to rob our lives away.. when he wants to give us what’s real..the best.. but it takes faith to wait on Him and trust the unfamiliar, the future…and time.. But he doesn’t anger for trying to take us where we want to be.. and for leaving Him half way for a deal we bargained for in the first place.... he doesn’t.. he tries to make the best out of everything.. even if we are broken and bruised.. entangled and full of regret.. He walks with us, carries us and takes us as close as he can to the dreams and hope we always wanted..we always dreamed of.. those ones that we never told anyone about..the fairytales that God can bring alive.

He decides to take us to that good place that we ourselves aspired until we let go of Him.he takes us as close as he can..fighting against our own deceptions .. and blindness..trying so hard to make our dreams come true, trying to take us to our future in the reality of all that we asked for and more.


ALLAN said...

good work Anna. we forget God in our best moments of life and go into worldly did a great job reminding us to cling on to God.THANK YOU

super chick said...

its awesome how we can see God from a whole new perspective! whenever we fall and fail we blame it on him, So true!! but regardless of anything he changes those hurts those self inflicted wounds and bruises into life changing testimonies! who can do that? Only He Can!!
Love it!