Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Don't be ashamed of the quiet spirit and hard countenance or the fact that you are now a man of few words. Just know that these are qualities that you can't behold had you never been through warfare.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
or am i taking a stand?
am i living
or is my living a lie?
i tell myself there's meaning
a reason to want for tomorrow
that the next sun will set
when the day's made some sense
and if it hasn't
it's better to wait till its done
till the stars are gone
are my excuses
nothing more than
a wanting to live?
or do i really believe
in the 'something' greater?
am i stronger
or is my weakness my strength?
am i drowning
or am i learning to breathe?
can i see clearer
or is everything getting closer?
i let myself get lost
in colours, the wondrous lights
i marvel at the flickering images
like paintings on the ocean bed
have i lost my mind
or am i finding it now?
this new sensation
was it meant to be an alien?
am i moving upstream
or is my vision tilted upside down?
it gets harder to make sense
of life anymore
maybe i wasn't meant to;
in this confusion, the running about
i see that the meaning i chased after
was by me, was in me
the 'something' greater unfolded
as my wisdom burnt to ashes
Monday, November 23, 2009
I feel in my soul your heavenly grace,
I hear in my ears your sweet harmony,
Playing the notes of my salvation,
My spirit is touched by your love so pure,
Consumed by your spirit, my being lusts for more,
I feel more than a body, more than me when you are near,
Away from this misty world, my world becomes clear,
Your words so complete, more elegant than poetry,
Like an artist showing me colors I never did see,
Painting patterns that leave me in awe,
My existence incomplete, until between my lines did you draw...
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
So now because we know how to love each person as Love is... we need not feel obliged to describe our kind of affection for different people as love is a self-defined. Though love is one.. the way we love each person is different..and yet in that difference lies the very essence of what love is and of what it is meant to be. We may love each other differently..but at the end of the day.. it all comes down to one word that is so often exploited: LOVE.
When we say we love someone, there is no need to explain on what terms we love them..because when one expresses love, the basis and degree of that love is understood not at the time of declaration (for that belittles that moment) but even before by virtue of relationship.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
1 Kings 20:13-16 (The Message)
13 Just then a lone prophet approached Ahab king of Israel and said, "God's word: Have you taken a good look at this mob? Well, look again—I'm turning it over to you this very day. And you'll know, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I am God."
14 Ahab said, "Really? And who is going to make this happen?"
God said, "The young commandos of the regional chiefs."
"And who," said Ahab, "will strike the first blow?"
God said, "You."
1 Kings 20:13-14
* A word for those young hearts who are called to take over the nations for Christ.. A word for those who even lead those young hearts.. This is the call to believe that we are chosen .. that there has been no mistake.. This is.. a God affirmation!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I stumbled across the greatest truth
I stopped and stared at it
Trying to comprehend its meaning
But it eluded me, my wisdom failed me
I wondered if I should trust this love
Or walk away like thousands before me did
I knew that once I made this choice
There was no going back
It was my life-altering decision
Time breathed down my neck
And then I felt a little nudge
My soul longing to know it's Creator
My life needing to have a greater purpose
In a moment, I knew I believed
I believed this love
I believed that It loved me
I knew that I desired for It too
I believed that It had been waiting for me
I knew that I've always felt a need for It
And since that moment,
Nothing has ever been the same
The storms still came,
The waves still roared and crashed around me
But that was the difference -
It crashed around me now
I wasn't alone in the storm,
My heart now soared above it
And forever I shall thank the grace that called me
The grace I did not deserve
The grace that saved my soul
The grace that will take me Home
I found this amazing ad when I was browsing through a bunch of 'em for college work....and it blew my mind away!!! Even though it's an ad for a company...I feel that this is how we look to the world - a bunch of crazy ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world. You agree?
Friday, September 11, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Or grand symphony
Could describe Your glory
Which leaves me in awe
No brilliant picture
Or an array of perfect colours
Could equal Your
Powerless in Your gaze
Held captive by Your voice
I've willingly lost my will
So that I may drown in Your love
You have become my only reason
To anything that's something
No uniquely sculptured word
Or eloquent phrase
Could compare to
The beauty of Your Name
No human mind
Or gregarious thoughts
Could hold against
Your most simple word
Saturday, September 5, 2009
You are the words that captivate me
You are the smell of rain in the damp air
You are the breeze that moves through my hair
You are the dancing stars in the velvet sky
You are the colours in the glorious sunrise
You are the water in the winter rain,
the ocean's crown that kisses my feet
You are the light of the moon
You are the scent of flowers and the woods
You are the cherry blossoms in an orchard
You are the sound of a laughing brook
You are the twinkle in a furry dog's eyes
You are the smile on a baby's face
You are everything that makes me
smile, laugh, blush, feel loved and beautiful.
I'm blessed to be Your priority.
I love You.
Recently, I read in a book that everything we love about creation are God's special love notes to us. These are some of my favourite and every time I see, hear or feel them - I'm just reminded of His passionate love for me. I love that He romances me in such unique ways. I'm blessed to know, even if only in part, of this love that sweeps me off my feet.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
31-34"Here is a simple rule of thumb for behavior: Ask yourself what you want people to do for you; then grab the initiative and do it for them! If you only love the lovable, do you expect a pat on the back? Run-of-the-mill sinners do that. If you only help those who help you, do you expect a medal? Garden-variety sinners do that. If you only give for what you hope to get out of it, do you think that's charity? The stingiest of pawnbrokers does that.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Something God was telling me...wanted to just share it with everybody 'cause you never who might need the extra help. I did and He sent me a friend to remind me how taking the most difficult path is a way of telling God that you trust Him. That you love Him more than you love yourself or anybody else.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
You are my everything.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Being true to oneself lies in standing by that which does not cost the truth and by that which is not at the expense of pleasing God. For, value does not lie in taking sides or gratifying man, but in choosing to stand by what is true, always upholding righteousness, forever embracing justice.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Lost in the sweet serenity of Your voice alive in Your Word, I can’t get by one day not knowing what You have to say. And yearning to hear what you believe I seek deep revelation. A beautiful serenade or just mere conversation would do for that is what sustains a longing soul like mine. And often I wonder why I depend on unsound opinion when it is Your utterance that breathes life. Why do I look to dissuasion when You so Powerfully leave me in reverie with Your compassion & light. A warm embrace of divine inspiration conquers mortal affection and every deep concern of my heart I find endorsed in memoirs aroused by You..Even when futility sounds in human connection, Your word lifts my life force. Undyingly, I know Your word is radiance in this dark tunnel; an indispensable light unto my path.
Friday, April 24, 2009
RATHER IT SPANS OVER MILLIONS OF MOMENTS
WE TEND TO LIMIT OUR 'PURPOSE' TO OUR UNDERSTANDING OF LIFE
WE FORGET THAT GOD, THE CREATOR OF LIFE, SEES OUR LIVES
IN THE MEASURE OF THE YEARS TO COME - NOT IN DAYS OR MONTHS!
IT IS EASY TO FORGET - INCREDIBLY EASY!
WHEN THE WAVES OF LIFE CRASH OVER US WITH SUCH TREMENDOUS FEROCITY
IT IS EASY TO LET GO OF THE 'BIGGER PICTURE'
BUT ALWAYS ASK GOD TO REMIND YOU (NOT THAT HE DOESN'T ANYWAY)
THAT THERE IS SOMETHING BIGGER THAN YOU AND ME
THAT WE ARE SO LIMITED IN OUR KNOWLEDGE OF LIFE
THAT WHAT WE SEE AND KNOW IS SIMPLY A FRACTION
OF SOMETHING THAT REALLY IS BIGGER, SO MUCH BIGGER
THAN WE CAN EVER COMPREHEND
IT IS HARD TO TRUST GOD WHEN THINGS AREN'T ROSY AND BRIGHT
IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT HE'S THERE GUARDING US, WATCHING OVER US
IT IS SO EASY TO GET SIDE-TRACKED BY WHAT WE THINK
IS OVERWHELMINGLY HUGE!
IT IS HARD TO HOLD ON TO HOPE WHEN YOU'RE SURROUNDED BY DARKNESS
BUT THE BEST PART IS THAT HE UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS
SO HE NEVER LETS GO OF YOU
THE JOURNEY THAT WE'RE ON - LET US TRY NOT TO CONFINE IT
TO THE SIMPLICITY OF OUR MINDS
LET US NOT LIMIT ITS SIGNIFICANCE ACCORDING TO
THE FOOLISHNESS OF OUR HUMAN WISDOM
LET US, RATHER, BELIEVE IN THE JOURNEY TOWARDS SOMETHING
GREATER THAN WHAT WE CAN IMAGINE
A JOURNEY TOWARDS HOPE, PEACE, JOY, STRENGTH, HEALING, LOVE
AND ABOVE ALL - GOD!
LET US ACCEPT AND HOLD ON TO THE FACT THAT OUR LIVES ARE PRICELESS
THIS LIFE OF OURS HAS A MEANING TO IT THAT IS SO DEEP
THAT THE SMALLEST REVELATION OF IT WOULD ENGULF US
IN ABSOLUTE AWE OF THE SUPERNATURAL
LET US UNDERSTAND OUR PURPOSE - WHICH, IN ONE WORD, IS GOD - AND BEGIN
THE JOURNEY TOWARDS THE PURPOSE
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
More than ever..I pray Your Word (Deut. 30)comes alive at a time such as this..thank u for second chances & for unconditional love..deep calls to Deep
.. when you.. return to the LORD your God and obey him with all your heart and with all your soul..then the LORD your God will restore and have compassion on you and gather you again from..[where] he scattered you. Even if you have been banished to the most distant land [sin] under the heavens, from there the LORD your God will gather you and bring you back.. The LORD your God will circumcise your hearts.. so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live. The LORD your God will put all these curses on your enemies who hate and persecute you. You will again obey the LORD and follow all his commands. Then the LORD your God will make you most prosperous in all the work of your hands .. The LORD will again delight in you and make you prosperous.. if you obey the LORD your God and keep his commands and decrees that are written in this Book of the Law and turn to the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Do You hear me when I scream?
Do You see my heart bleed with each blood thirsty word?
Do You feel my body grow cold with each memory?
Do You see the endless tears each night?
Do You see the distorted and wretched person that I see
when I look into the mirror?
Do You see the agonizing pain underneath my facade?
Do You feel the torment i go through with each shuddering breath?
If You do, will You hold me close?
Will You wipe away my tears?
Will You quieten my fears?
Will You fill my drained heart with renewed love?
Will You heal my shattered hopes and dreams?
Will You help me live?
Saturday, April 11, 2009
that I find indescribable peace
It is in Your Name
that I find the strength to go on
It is in Your strength
that I find everlasting joy
It is in Your face
that I find the grace to accept
It is in Your promises
that I find the hope for a better tomorrow
It is in Your arms
that I find perfect love
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
I am desperate to dwell in your presence
I am so desperate to feel your touch
My heart is longing for you.
Hey you... Lover of my soul, come meet with me.
I want to know what your breathe feels like
I want to know what your touch feels like
I want to know what your presence feels like
So please come. Come here and meet with me
I’m waiting. I’m waiting patiently. Arms wide open. Hungry. Desperate.
Please don’t let me down. Please don’t leave me hanging.
Come you gracious one. Come quickly.
My heart is anxious. My heart is seeking.
I'm overwhelmed by your goodness.
I'm swept off my feet by your love.
I'm so hungry. I'm so hungry to know you more.
I've heard of your magnificent beauty. I've heard of your saving grace.
I just want to know it now. I want to experience it for myself.
So come. For all I truly want is more and more of you.
Lord, You see my heart
in all it's brokenness
You alone can see
the depth of my pain
You alone see
how hurt I truly am
You alone can feel my sorrow
Before You I am transparent
Before You all my pretenses fall
Before You I come exactly as I am
Before You I fail to be what I am not
And I am overwhelmed by
Your accepting love
I am grateful for Your enduring mercy
I am in awe of Your grace
that covers me despite my flaws
I am thankful for open arms
I can run into
I cannot understand why You love me
but You do and I love You because You do
I don't see in me the worth for which
You paid such a great price
Because of Your unfailing love
I cannot leave You
For without You I am nothing
But with You - I am everything!
Everything I yearn to be - I can be
For even in my weakness
You stay by my side
And You never let go
In You everything fades away
for only in You do I find perfect love
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
He takes us through these deserts so that WHEN we are indeed blessed with what we need and fulfilled with what we once longed for, hoped & dreamed of, we would have great value & gratitude for things..for people & appreciation for freedom..for love & value for all good to come..He takes us through the wilderness, that we may begin to see beauty in the ordinary & great purpose in small things that once just passed us by ..and this value we would never have if we didn't go through the testing and waiting..the times of lack & pain. Perhaps..we wouldn't treat people the way they ought to be treated, neither recieve blessings with the preciousness they deserve to be received with..nor see things from a deeper perspective..one of gratitude and realisation.
All along ,we are being prepared for times of refreshing, joy & fulfillment.. for "our" day. As for me.. as I move towards the beauty of the unknown I hold on to hope, faith & peace to get to where I must..never giving up..always moving forward even if the darkness seems never ending or the valley ever deep..I hold on to His love, preparing my heart to fully appreciate my coming promise..my coming day.. whether in this lifetime or Eternal home.
* For Paul..for Jesus and all those who simply live in the hope of the future.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I feel myself fall
Falling through my pitch black pain
I try to hold on
But my fingers keep slipping
Sliding off the meek gripping,
the niches that infested the dark wall
I scream, I cry
My eyes can barely see
the far off light - a tiny dot in the overwhelming distance
Silence engulfs me
I am now surrounded
The familiar voices, the images in my head
taunting, pointing accusing fingers at me
I drown in my guilt, my shame, my ignorance
I try to breathe but I can't find air
I tear at myself, bleeding and desperate
I strive to cry - an outlet for the pain
My screams for help become louder
But they bounce of the walls of my dark prison
The pain doubles, I'm bent in agony
All the while, still falling deeper
deeper into the darkness, my depression
My cries, slowly, fades into feeble moans
and the niches become lesser and smaller
From within my heart
A new cry emerges, a quiet cry that does not escape my lips
It pulls every atom of my being towards one direction - one last cry for help
A moment of absolute quiet seizes me
it engulfs my ears, dimming the voices in my head
In the next breath, the one I fear to be my very last
My soul bursts forth in its cry to its Creator
to take, to hold, to heal
It screams with the last bit of strength
to the God it knows - the Almighty Father
Air rushes through my lungs
bringing my body back to life
My soul is born again, refreshed
Hope is renewed within me
Love is all I can feel
The voices in my head are drowned out by songs of love
The images are blurry and begin to fade into nothingness
All I can say is a single word
The most precious, the most beautiful Name of them all -
There times in all our lives when we feel like we have no choice but to let go because the pain is unbearable - but i want to remind all of us (including me) that God is faithful - He never breaks His promise! But sometimes, unless we are pushed into a corner, completely abandoned by the world, we won't let Him take over. We need to let Him have full control - it's hard but its not impossible. May God be our absolute and only strength. Love You Father and thank You for some awesome God-people in my life.
Friday, March 13th, '09